My first RANDOM BLOG!

hmm hes the only thing on my mind so i guess ill write about him

Current mood: animated

hmm ok so im currently bored outta my ass an as always im alone
(oh yea peace an quiet gotta love it)
anyways lets see what is their really to talk about...ah i got it ok so im no longer single(woot <(^_^)>) lol everyone i know has been trying to get me with my bestfriend of 5yrs an now hey look we are togther! Now that they have finnally got their wish they all stupidly ask me the same question ^_^ are you lonely?(my boyfriend/bestfriend is in the army*which is why they ask) ok now that, that is explained ill explain why its a dumb question to ask me HELLO people dont u think its a lil to late to ask that we are already togther you should have thought of that before pushing us togther lol j/k. NO IM NOT LONELY or sad (like my nosey arse sister thinks) im just fine. let me guess you all think im weird for being fine even thought i pretty much see my bf about 2or3 times a year. Well its true i might just be weird ^_^ but the thing i love most(well not really most) about being with him is that i have my space im so used to being alone i actully prefer it NOW HERE IS THE THING I REALLY LOVE MOST ABOUT BEING WITH HIM EVEN THOUGH I LOVE HAVING MY OWN SPACE I LOVE IT EVEN MORE WHEN HE ENVADES IT.(NO SEXUAL PUN INTENDED) Yea i know im a walking contradicting hot mess, but thats ok because he loves me all the same an i love him to. But lets get back on track here (you know the whole lonely an space talk) to me this relationship is totally odd even though i dont mind him being away when i lay down to go to sleep i always feel as if something is missing (i wonder if he feels the same???) then i as lay there wonderin what exactly is missing i end up imagining his face. But even the times when i miss him the most i still never feel lonely.

(the purple is a convo i had with mimi about how i feel)[mimi by the way is one of my friends =)]

when hes gone i barely ever feel lonely because he always lets me no is some way that hes thinking of me (I LOVE THAT ABOUT HIM)
an every chance he gets he talks to me or text me

but when hes here my happiest moments are by his side however i only see him once every visit an the rest of the time he dosent speak to me (lil side bar here, dont take that statement the wrong way people hes away more then hes home and im not the only one who misses him thus are time is limited per visit duh)

it's like when hes close an i cant reach him i feel like crap but when hes far away he makes me feel as if hes next door (it's a perplexing feeling, it is lol)

(end of friend convo/damn iv wrote alot thus far kudos to anyone who actully reads this damn thing)


so in short(lol dont u wish this whole thing was short) uh em
when hes not here by myside im never lonely because he makes me feel special so that i wont feel the distance...but when hes here i do feel lonely because i wanna keep him locked im my room (once again no sexual punn intended/aint i just a selfish lil bastard for thinking that way =_=")


>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>awwwww i wrote my lil heart out