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WOW its been forever since my last post so much to get out ok lets see where shall i start. Ok so as you know iv been looking for a job so i can go see my boyfriend i have even improved my grades so that my parents would let me go without having any concerns or excuses when i told my bf that i passed my BIO midterm he said " that's great baby I'm so proud of you" and that's when i told him i was looking for a job to pay for my plane ticket then =_=" he laughed at me an said why bother I'm gonna pay for your ticket.... i was beyond crushed. ok so to who ever bothers reading this your probably thinking ok why are u crushed whats the big deal. well the big deal is i wanted to show him i could get there on my own strength with out him helping me an not only that i thought if i did it myself it would mean more to him showing him just how much i want to be with him so when he said that to me it was like a major slap in the face.=_=" most girls would love a guy who buys her everything an anything but i like doing these things for myself.I'm not complaining about him doing these things ( well actually i am) i just wish he could understand theres a limit an that I'm capable of taking care of myself is all...lets see what else is there to tell o yea SPRING BREAK is approaching an i plan to hang out with my friends an sleep over at there houses at random lol. I hung out with my friend Corey just the other night n had a blast but the whole time i was out i felt a if something or rather someone was missing (I'm referring to my boyfriend...don't u just love how no matter what i talk about it comes back to him lol). well there's a reason for that an i know it may sound stupid but the one thing i have noticed about being an army girlfriend vs just being a ordinary girlfriend as an army girlfriend when i miss him i cant just call or go to his house an see him, when i hang with friends i cant text him to meet me at so an so i get mad when i get a text an the name that pops up isn't his an when I'm out having fun i feel guilty because hes not by my side an theres always a chance he may never return to it. i love him so much an i hate that my mother hates me hanging out with my guy friends because she doesn't trust ill be faithful when if u asked her she cant tell u my fav color an can barely remember my name she knows nothing about me or my boyfriend she has no idea just how in love with him i am and she dares to judge me i go out the house if I'm lucky once a month gah she erks me if not for my dad i would have left this house the day i turned 18. o well cant choose your family all u can do is run from them an prey they don't come chasing an if they do run faster. i guess that's all for the night as i sit here waiting for my phone to go off an hope its him.